Certain is it that there is no kind of affection so purely angelic as of a father to a daughter.  In love to our wives there is desire; to our sons, ambition; but to our daughters there is something which there are no words to express.  ~Joseph Addison
-Awww. soo true right?

Watching your daughter being collected by her date feels like handing over a million dollar to a gorilla.  ~Jim Bishop
-Ahihihi. Talaga ba? Hmm.. Dunno yet baka pag big na si Pippay. Lets see.

A daughter may outgrow your lap, but she will never outgrow your heart.  ~Author Unknown
-Awww ulit! Never ever will my babe outgrow mine!

A mother's treasure is her daughter.  ~Catherine Pulsifer
-This, I'm sure! Im soo excited for her to grow na!

A daughter is a little girl who grows up to be a friend.  ~Author Unknown
-Sweet.. She is already, by now.. My little happiness!

How the mother is to be pitied who hath handsome daughters!  Locks, bolts, bars, and lectures of morality are nothing to them: they break through them all.  They have as much pleasure in cheating a father and mother, as in cheating at cards.  ~John Gay
-OH! Nako lagot.. Ahihi sana hindi mana sakin pagnagdalaga..

Mothers and daughters are closest, when daughters become mothers.  ~Author Unknown
-Korek. Im experiencing this as of the moment..

If you would have a good wife, marry one who has been a good daughter.  ~Thomas Fuller
-Like me, of course, hihihi.. contradicts with my answer two questions b4 this..

A daughter is the happy memories of the past, the joyful moments of the present, and the hope and promise of the future.  ~Author Unknown
-Yup! Especially when you first take a look at her when she's newly born.. Awww.. You'll have some amazing flashbacks of your life.. Like, happy ka and at the same time scared for her.. Its a big, scary, crazy world to be born into..

Many a man wishes he were strong enough to tear a telephone book in half - especially if he has a teenage daughter.  ~Guy Lombardo
-Haha. This, i swear, my Daddy and I went through! Grabe away namin nyan!!

He that would the daughter win, must with the mother first begin.  ~English Proverb
-Good luck little guys!! Mga future suitors ni Pipz, behold thy mother! Strict ako, I guess..

Any astronomer can predict with absolute accuracy just where every star in the universe will be at 11.30 tonight.  He can make no such prediction about his teenage daughter.  ~James T. Adams
-However... Kawawang mga astronomers.. =)

A daughter is a mother's gender partner, her closest ally in the family confederacy, an extension of her self.  ~Author Unknown
-Yea! Kampihan ito!! Its true! The same sa household namin dati, panu four girls kami versus two boys! Hihihi.. Fun times talga b4 when we were kids..

As long as a woman can look ten years younger than her own daughter, she is perfectly satisfied.  ~Oscar Wilde
-Hahahahah! This, i gotta see pa..

The mother-daughter relationship is the most complex.  ~Wynonna Judd
-Really.. Gosh.. Biting nails.. I guess so, judging the way i behave around my mom!!

What the daughter does, the mother did.  ~Jewish Proverb
-Really now!!! Hihihihihi... History repeats itself.  Hopefully not my history diba!! Iba iba tayong story please! =)

My eleven year old daughter mopes around the house all day waiting for her breasts to grow.  ~Bill Cosby
-Exaggg. Anyway, I used to be like this. Like, I cant wait to be dalaga na.. Now I want to go back to bein young. Weird ko diba?

Ability is what will get you to the top if the boss has no daughter.  ~Author Unknown
-Gets?? HAhaha.. Talga.. Mga guys talaga maabilidad..

And thou shalt in thy daughter see,
This picture, once, resembled thee.
~Ambrose Philips
-I was shocked to my toenails in my early adolescence when i realized i am the spitting image of my mom!!! dati, nasusuka ako jokingly.. Pero ngayon ayos na.. okay lang.. hehehe..

Of all the haunting moments of motherhood, few rank with hearing your own words come out of your daughter's mouth.  ~Victoria Secunda
-I have yet to experience this..

A father is always making his baby into a little woman.  And when she is a woman he turns her back again.  ~Enid Bagnold
-Awwwwwwwwww... Touched ako. My dad is really like this. Nakow. Sobrang strict sya.

Daughters are like flowers, they fill the world with beauty, and sometimes attract pests.  ~Author Unknown
-Hehehehe. Bastus. Kwawang guys..

The father of a daughter is nothing but a high-class hostage.  A father turns a stony face to his sons, berates them, shakes his antlers, paws the ground, snorts, runs them off into the underbrush, but when his daughter puts her arm over his shoulder and says, "Daddy, I need to ask you something," he is a pat of butter in a hot frying pan.  ~Garrison Keillor
-Pippay matuto ka nyan! So that youll have yer daddy eatin at the palm of yer hand dba!!

And mothers are their daughters' role model, their biological and emotional road map, the arbiter of all their relationships.  ~Victoria Secunda
-OMG, really?? Naku, dapat talaga role model material ako!! Hihihi..

A father is available to help his daughter balance both her love and her anger toward her mother, to moderate the inevitable emotional extremes in the intense mother-daughter equation.  With Daddy's steadying influence daughters can learn to be comfortable with healthy anger, rather than feeling that they must be eternal good girls who must at all costs conceal it.  ~Victoria Secunda
-Yes i think. Grabe din kami magaway ng mama ko eh b4 eh..

We've begun to raise daughters more like sons, but few have the courage to raise our sons more like our daughters.  ~Gloria Steinem
-Yea!! Woman power.. Heheh, I think si Pong raised like a daughter sya.. No kidding! I mean alam mo yun di sya lagi pinapayagan dati..

Every mother hopes that her daughter will marry a better man than she did, and is convinced that her son will never find a wife as good as his father did.  ~Martin Andersen-Nexö
-THE BEST ITO... =)

Suddenly, through birthing a daughter, a woman finds herself face to face not only with an infant, a little girl, a woman-to-be, but also with her own unresolved conflicts from the past and her hopes and dreams for the future.... As though experiencing an earthquake, mothers of daughters may find their lives shifted, their deep feelings unearthed, the balance struck in all relationships once again off kilter.  ~Elizabeth Debold and Idelisse Malave
-This is what Im talking about kanina.. As in mixed talaga ang emotions.. With all the obstacles I have been through, I sometimes get scared for my daughter..

Old as she was, she still missed her daddy sometimes.  ~Gloria Naylor
-NAKAKAIYAK naman ito.. I miss my old man a great deal at times too!

A father... knows exactly what those boys at the mall have in their depraved little minds because he once owned such a depraved little mind himself.  In fact, if he thinks enough about the plans that he used to have for young girls, the father not only will support his wife in keeping their daughter home but he might even run over to the mall and have a few of those boys arrested.  ~Bill Cosby

-Bill Cosby the best! This explains as much. =)

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

so here goes:

1. My feet are always dirty. I refuse to wear "chinelas" since I was a kid which drives my parents crazy! I like the feel of the cold, hard floor on my bare feet that's why.

2. My Siamese cat sleeps beside me every night.

3. I have two tall shelves full of books! I started collecting since age eight. They're variations of gifts from my mom and grandma from the US. But most are bought by me, yours truly.

4. I watch every sensible thing that's on TV. Even films depicting war...

5. I like wearing skirts than old regular jeans. Coz I'm short and jeans make me look stubby!

6. I can last three hours straight on the phone, talk-a-thon.

7. I used to join beauty contests! Gag me.

8. I loooove FISH CRACKERS forever! Fish crackers in the moviehouse, fish crackers in the school cafeteria, fish crackers even in my room. One time I broke my teeth eating fish crackers.. And also, I pour coffee in my rice in the mornings. 

9. I am the one who religiously clips my boyfriend's humongous toenails away..

10. I'M JUST A NERD WHO CAN'T STOP BEING A NERD!!! My fingers automatically tap away in any calculator they land on! Sheesh.. 

                                                                                      tagged by: LANCE JACINTO

Sometimes with all the craziness in the world, I sink down the floor and stare in nothingness. I get up and decide that just maybe, the internet will provide me a little therapy. So I Googled some stuff and tweaked Friendster--hoping to see something new. I'm half hoping to find that some other people are sharing the same misery as me or half that some are actually being truly happy at the moment.

Well, some are happy. And quite obviously, some are only pretending to be. I don't get the reason why people pretend to be okay when in reality nothing about them is okay.. They put on fake smiles and phony 'People-should-be-jealous-of-me-coz-I'm-happy' profiles. They irritate me. I frantically click my mouse over to get out of that page. I guess it happens to you too--that freaky irritating feeling when you know someone's lying.. We all know that some people just FAKE IT.. And to even rub the fakeness in your face. I just wish I know why.

I admire people who are the real deal. People who need not shout "My-life-is-a-stupid-mess' or 'I-don't-have-a-way-out-of-this-one' lines... Some people just tell the world how seriously down they are at the time. And a little later on, you'll find them okay.. REAL-ly okay.

Sure sometimes we mess up. It happens to me too. I realize sometime that 'hey I guess I screwed up today'--but so what?! Everyone makes mistakes. So next time you bump into me, I'm expecting you to tell me the truth.

Are you really okay?

So I got a job.. As an accountant at Chinabank Corporation. Everyone in my family's really psyched about it. I mean my Dad got all sweet and suddenly hugs me out of nowhere to remind everyone that "Working girl na ang baby ko." We even went out today to buy working clothes, shoes, bags and such.. It's pretty exciting.

And now I'm feeling all jittery. There will be lots of people to meet and things to learn. And I am very willing to do all of that. I'm still a reviewee so I guess it'll be a little tough. Oh, but I laugh in the face of challenge.. Ha! People were saying it will be hard work and I'll have to put in extra effort for this to work..

So watch me.

 Look what I found infront of our lawn tonight. This unbelievable delicious block of Cadbury carefully lay there totally unconcealed. I warily picked it up, half knowing it was mine. And glanced around the silent neighborhood a bit. Nobody there..

The littlest white piece of note was stuck to its back flap. And you can probably already read what it said..

current mood: surprised

After a looong Makati day yesterday, I was tired stiff and beat. I almost dodged my girl friendship day with Coleen if only she hadn't had the heart to actually remind/nag me.

I helped type her resume (boringgg) and ate huge pancakes made by her mom who I love to bits. In the middle of the afternoon, Pong called my cellphone. He wanted to meet and join us. Coleen was giving me the "look". And then Pong called her house.

And so she nudged me to go meet him. First, I called Pong's mom to tell her not to worry because Pong and I are coming home together. I also told her how depressed her son is. Pong never had the courage to approach anybody. Only Coleen. And me. 

He was again, looking as crestfallen as ever. His eyes were obviously sore from crying. "Saan ka galing," I asked him.

"Dito lang sa mall naglakad lakad mag-isa," He barely whispered. He took me to eat dinner at a Chinese restaurant where we usually dine in together in the not-so-long-ago past. Sappy Elvis Presley Christmas songs played in the background. "Andami kong naaalala."

I gently took both of his manly calloused hands and spoke to him as lightly as possible. "Pong, kailangan mong matuto mabuhay ng wala na ako.."

"Ayoko! Ayoko!" Tears immediately sprung in his expressive Fernandez eyes. People turned to look at us. The decorative Christmas lights kept on glowing above. I felt a sudden wave of explainable sadness.

How quickly time flies by. How quickly people change. And God can too help Pong heal his broken heart.

If only he'd give Him all its pieces...  

I gave the blue glow of my computer screen a  rare smile before I shut it off. And just as always  he put me to sleep until five in the morning. Like  no one else can ever do.

Just what is it that will heal a totally broken  heart? It is not just some other guy. It is the  company of people who always will remind you  just how much loved you really are..

*Name protected; cannot be revealed. Terms of  privacy.

current mood: melancholy

It's so weird the day I decided to speak to Him again. We were suddenly friends and the amazing thing was, he was ready to help me with my ordeal. We agreed that nothing should ever evolve between us, our friendship is what matters most. I am just glad that someone very familiar to me would be willing to listen.

The healing process is about to be complete. And maybe, just maybe, my life is finally back in one piece.

current mood: lonely